by catch » Sun Oct 07, 2012 11:09 am
Another heaviness in his hands, another gift - no, no, this wasn't his to keep. It was only for his eyes, to see what may be seen. And he was curious - what was it, that everyone else did not know, but that he might? Catch looks between the two men, a cautious peering at Maxwell to be certain the man does not grow two jealous. With uninformed fingers, the addled man draws aside the coarse cloth, alternatively scratching and tickling his palms.
It lay in his lap, settled against the sweet breads, so that his palms did not have to touch the plaster. He did not know why he made such a precaution, only that he did. And he is glad for it. So glad. He could weep, and he does without knowing so, the tears spilling sudden and hot and silver from his eyes, and so, perhaps, they are not tears at all. He says nothing. What could he say? His mind was a trap, a trap gnawed through and through with worms until there was nothing left but the thin vestiges, suggestions, of the walls. Whatever had meant to deal with this was one of those shells. They were looking at him, watching him, he was keen of that. Oh, but how could he lie? How could he lie about this? Heat and cold roiled together behind his teeth, and he was very conscious of the tongue that lay at the bottom of his mouth.
Well, he must say something. His lips part only a little, yet it is enough for the worms to force their way out, for writhing tendrils of oily smoke, both viscous and ethereal, to push their way past, to push out a noise, a pathetic whimper of a bell-sound. No, not yet. This was small, pale. Yet, around them, the very trees seemed to bend their heads in a silent salute, the flowers thrashing like animal-things, their shrieks in tones of fear and loving-thrall. The facsimile was not real, and so it shatters in his quaking hands, torn apart by the silver smoke that lashes from his very pores. He does not remember standing, but he stands before them, now, his head somehow mortal, if over-tall, and yet towering to bump against the subtle curve of a sky gone pale. Another moan, then, and several trees simply shatter, for lack of a better term; they shimmer, and shards break away with the sound of bells.
He thinks he is speaking, telling them that he does not know this thing, though the woman, to him, is pretty, yet can see by the shattering trees and the screaming flowers that it is not so, and he attempts to babble other things. He tries to speak of cats, of apples, of the feel of winter and the soft-silk Lake, of sheep's wings, of anything. There are some words that slip through. Most are meaningless, animal braying. These are the precious gems, for sometimes, he speaks in Song and Bells, and it is those times that the earth roars under him, the flowers crisp to brown, as if a great heat has been held against them, and the trees groan as they explosively flake to bits.
Only when the pressure is gone can he, finally, close his lips against the tide, can stop himself from howling anything else. He will stand there in his smoke and his suggestive form, heaving against the tremble of the ground, his eyes wide and animal and spent, not even noticing the devastation of the grove, the picnic, or even the scattered breads across the burnt ground.