It was a small figure that sat on a familiar outcropping of rock on the shores of Silver Lake. She had often come here when she needed to think. The soothing motion of a lake that had suffered the taint of the Maelhim and survived helped to dull her senses. It helped to push her past the raging whirl of her thoughts. His thoughts. Their thoughts.
It was a simple theology lesson, this night. As the moon rose far overhead, and the stars twinkled their silent song, Lamai's mind moved in the same circles.
Why couldn't she perform good acts, no matter how hard she tried? Why did it not seem to matter. What was she missing?
She never had this problem as a mortal. As a mortal, she was surrounded by those that would lift a blade to protect her, knowing that she would never do so herself. The beginning of the end of the beginning was at that point when that vow was shattered.
Or was it?
Time blurred together in that year. David's death blurred into her extended bedrest. Six months for one used to constant activity was maddening. That blurred into her own death. She remembered it vividly; her last breaths taken were spent staring into the small face of her daughter. The daughter that looked so much like him. Her father. His twin.
It was there, just beyond her reach. Again, thoughts turned to mortal concerns. Yet, the ruffle of grey, healing wings reminded her of a very important fact. She wasn't mortal. What was the difference?
Lightning could have sizzled down from the sky, so quick did it strike.
Faith.
The difference was in faith. Mortality required faith to Believe. They were blind to the Maker's true purpose. They Believed with all of their very souls in the power of Goodness and Light. It was that that kept Myrken struggling, no matter what Name it was called by.
Faith was not something required by angels. Angels did not need Faith; while they could not look upon his existance, they had more than symbolic proof of his existance. Without a diety to follow, they did not exist.
In that singular, trying year, Lamai had lost her faith. That was what she was missing. That is what was lost from her grasp, that kept her striving forevermore for the Light. She was Light. She was not required to Believe in it, and that lack of belief came with a twisted lack of resolve for a creature that had once been mortal.
Had it taken six years for a simple realization? Clinging to mortality, struggling with her own bitterness and hate.
She did not need Ivory's promises. She did not need Tybalt's assurances that it was possible.
All she need do was ask. With Faith.
"Please.."
On the rock that extended out into Silver Lake from its banks, Lamai Aranea Carver was not. In the mind of two that she held most dear, she was gently unraveled, so as to keep from undoing her work entirely.
A little girl in a house filled with the love of her grandparents sat up, gasping for breath and lifting her gaze towards the ceiling and the heavens beyond... and she waited.
